energy

It's been quite a week. Date on Sunday. Book Club on Monday. Free happy hour on Tuesday = bad bad hang over on Wednesday. Dinner with a friend on Wednesday. Rooftop movie on Thursday night and now a wedding in DC all weekend. Even reading the list is exhausting ! Many people have said to me on several occasions that I have a lot of energy...more than the average person kind of energy....and I have to admit that although I do not really comprehend the energy "average"...I am growing to understand that these people are probably right.

So, what's the answer ? Well, one thing I've noticed is that I put much of my energy into people or things that don't necessarily interest me or reciprocate the energy back. I think it's time to cut some corners. I think....I'll keep you posted 'cause this is going to be hard.

Fall Weather is scattering my brain

It's true....maybe it's the wind...or maybe it's the newish feel of cool weather every morning when I leave my house....Whatever it is, I find that I cannot think straight this morning. I find myself wanting to comment about ticketmaster's new promotional thing where you get a coupon to redeem for one free song for each ticket you buy from them...not bad, right ? Although, I rarely want to buy just one song so we'll see how this works out....

Other things on my mind....I am always late for work....Do I really want to curl my hair today ?....those poor people losing jobs in the financial world !...speaking of jobs, how did i stoop so low as to have an 8 am appt every morning ?...if i had just woken up to work out in the morning these past two weeks, i would not have scheduled these 8 am appts !....I am so excited about my rooftop happy hour tonight !

Crazy, right ? Damn you Fall for scattering my brain !

ME YOU AND EVERYONE YOU KNOW

Has anyone else seen this movie ? I was enraptured within the first minute....I've barely finished it and here I am blogging about it. I am so connected to it even though I've stopped to write about it. What is that all about ? I think I have a good guess. Lately, I've been obsessed with the idea of having some sort of passion. You meet people all the time who have this one thing that drives them from day to day and there is something so beautiful about it. I feel like I am constantly in search of what that might be for me. It's the reason why I can't let myself sit still for a moment...not even while watching a movie which I claim to be enraptured with.

preparation

So far, this weekend has involved major preparation for my upcoming trip to Europe. What does this "preparation" involve ?
Shopping, of course ! Actually, I'm not even sure that I will wear a single thing that I have bought this weekend in Europe....well, maybe some new underwear but that's about it.

The rest of the weekend I actually will get ready of the trip. I promise.

Spring

Yeah, I know it's been a while....But the dreary weather had left me dreary inside and I just didn't have anything to say ! Or if I did, I didn't have the heart to say it. Winter makes me that way. The good news is that it's not winter any more ! I am so happy to say it ! And you can be sure that I feel it :) I feel it in my bones...even in my hair! I just feel good all over ! Thank God, right ? Winter was starting to take it's toll.

Sooooo, as they say....back to business: I spend half my life beating myself up over missed opportunities. And NO, I am not talking about that time I refused to jump off a cliff or parasail....I am not a daring person in the active sense and I never have been . I'm ok with that. The "daring" that I am speaking of is simply saying "hi" to a guy I have a crush on. I can't even do that. I get so frozen in the moment...literally. Sometimes I even get this rash on my neck. It's embarassing !

The ironic thing is that in every other aspect of my life....I am open, friendly....I don't meet a stranger. Why do I freeze simply because I think someone is attractive. I am 30 years old but I feel like a teenager in these instances. What can I do ? It's another opportunity that has passed me by. Damn.