preparation

So far, this weekend has involved major preparation for my upcoming trip to Europe. What does this "preparation" involve ?
Shopping, of course ! Actually, I'm not even sure that I will wear a single thing that I have bought this weekend in Europe....well, maybe some new underwear but that's about it.

The rest of the weekend I actually will get ready of the trip. I promise.

Spring

Yeah, I know it's been a while....But the dreary weather had left me dreary inside and I just didn't have anything to say ! Or if I did, I didn't have the heart to say it. Winter makes me that way. The good news is that it's not winter any more ! I am so happy to say it ! And you can be sure that I feel it :) I feel it in my bones...even in my hair! I just feel good all over ! Thank God, right ? Winter was starting to take it's toll.

Sooooo, as they say....back to business: I spend half my life beating myself up over missed opportunities. And NO, I am not talking about that time I refused to jump off a cliff or parasail....I am not a daring person in the active sense and I never have been . I'm ok with that. The "daring" that I am speaking of is simply saying "hi" to a guy I have a crush on. I can't even do that. I get so frozen in the moment...literally. Sometimes I even get this rash on my neck. It's embarassing !

The ironic thing is that in every other aspect of my life....I am open, friendly....I don't meet a stranger. Why do I freeze simply because I think someone is attractive. I am 30 years old but I feel like a teenager in these instances. What can I do ? It's another opportunity that has passed me by. Damn.