I went home for a week recently....And I tried really hard to just surrender...to let go and enjoy it as much as I can. I did okay but there are certain things that you just can't change. A few weeks ago, I got a letter in the mail that I wrote to myself when I was 17 years old...an old teacher from high school actually followed through with a project she had us complete 12 years ago and sent it to everyone in my high school graduating class...Reading that letter made me realize a few things. One is that I really wish I had given myself a broader glimpse of my life and what I was thinking back then. The other thing I realized is that some things just don't change. For almost my entire life, I haven't been able to understand myself and my need to leave home. But maybe there isn't anything wrong with that. Maybe it's ok that I feel my home is in a different place now.....It feels pretty good to be able to surrender to that.
